Julie's Last Leg of the Journey

I have had a banana and shake for Breakfast. I am starving. I know I will get through it in the next few days, but geez that first day is the hardest to stick to, as in the back of your head - there is always tomorrow. Well I am trying to take action today cause tomorrow never comes!

I have been such a fool. I have let meyself go to nearly beyond help in my own mind! (I know Im not that bad, but I am feeling that bad!!!)
I had the worst week last week at work, made me feel really crappy. I didnt give 2 crackers about food, what I was eating, exercise, nothing. Today I am feeling about 3 kgs heavier and frumpy, muffin top happening, clothes look awful. I am having a real shocker. Funny that even though I woke up this morning with the determination to do this and get back down to the good feeling about myself, when I have this little voice inside telling me Im hungry and just one custard tart, or chocolate wont hurt. BUT IT WILL! I have to find some strength, and while Dean is working night shift, I can build some motivatio nup by going to the gym and shaking this flabby arse! I am sick of saying this every Monday, every week, every month. I do have to do this this time and not go back to the NORMAL routine. I have to stop being a lazy fat arse and actually maintain, not just pick up the chocolate because I have lost weight that week. I need to change my lifestyle. I know that I got there before, I know I can do it again! I just need to find my inner strength. Someone Please HELP ME!!

Today has been a busy morning. I had my shake for breaky, it is nearly lunchtime and I havent had a piece of fruit, I might leave that one and have it for dessert tonight. I am going to have my shake for lunch. I have my water bottle filled with diet cordial - the best one I have found too - Diet Rite Cordial -Cranberry and Boysenbery Juice!

I went to the gym last night. YeeeHaaaa! I felt good but thought I was going to pass out at one stage from all the acids running through my legs when I went on the cross trainer (doesn’t help that the machine is broken and makes you feel like your doing Level 10 on the trainer when your actually on Level 1). I wanted to get up early this morning and get on the exercise bike, but I didn’t. It was too cold….. I have to get over that too! I need to learn to just get up and do it!

So far so good today. I am feeling peckish now, but I know that is due to not drinking enough water or having a piece of fruit.

My lovely food police officer stopped me from drinking my can of coke - God I love her…. I am going to the gym and she reminded me that I would only be going to burn that can off if I drink it. I put it back in my cupboard and filled my glass with water!

I am trying to get my best friend motivated to come back to the gym with me! I think it helps to know that you have a buddy to get you there also!

Come on Mel!

Ok - Today has to be the day that I have decided to pull my head in. Obviously I have done bad today but will start a fresh tomorrow. I am going to be plain honest and let all my bad and good decisions be known on here.
Today I woke up and was late - BAD MOVE! I went to get my daughter a cheese and bacon roll for breaky - and I got one too! Got to work, made a hot milo with skim milk - wasnt too bad, but then the coffee man turned up and I thought I would love a really nice hot chocolate. I bought one! It was full milk - gross, I drank only a couple of mouthfuls and threw it out.
I have had subway for lunch - a chicken fillet, sweet chilli sauce, lettuce, tomato, capsicum and cheese. I am also having a can of coke.... grrr.... Know its bad, but will move on with it.
I have rang my husband and told him I will be going to the gym this avo. I really need to. My work clothes are soooooooo tight. I feel awful. So my plan is to use this as my diary. I will log all foods I plan to eat and update on what I have eaten! I can do this I know I can, I just need some motivation to get back to the gym and continue to go back!
My fat arse should be all the motivation I need! Seems like today I have found some! So tomorrow is a start. I will be good.
Plan for tomoorws meals:
Breaky - Shake
Morning Tea - Apple
Lunch - Shake
Afternoon Tea - Jelly
Dinner - Need to go back to basics here, steak and vegies (capsicum, cauli, brocolli, mushrooms)
God help me and give me strength!

Exercise Regime.
I dont know really where to start here. I am assuming I should at least do 30 minutes minimum everyday! So I will start to log what exercise I am doing. I might even find my pedometer and measure all my steps taken each day too! My gym work will have to be added, keep me honest and show myself I can do this!