Monday, August 25, 2008
I have had a banana and shake for Breakfast. I am starving. I know I will get through it in the next few days, but geez that first day is the hardest to stick to, as in the back of your head - there is always tomorrow. Well I am trying to take action today cause tomorrow never comes!
What a fool
I have been such a fool. I have let meyself go to nearly beyond help in my own mind! (I know Im not that bad, but I am feeling that bad!!!)
I had the worst week last week at work, made me feel really crappy. I didnt give 2 crackers about food, what I was eating, exercise, nothing. Today I am feeling about 3 kgs heavier and frumpy, muffin top happening, clothes look awful. I am having a real shocker. Funny that even though I woke up this morning with the determination to do this and get back down to the good feeling about myself, when I have this little voice inside telling me Im hungry and just one custard tart, or chocolate wont hurt. BUT IT WILL! I have to find some strength, and while Dean is working night shift, I can build some motivatio nup by going to the gym and shaking this flabby arse! I am sick of saying this every Monday, every week, every month. I do have to do this this time and not go back to the NORMAL routine. I have to stop being a lazy fat arse and actually maintain, not just pick up the chocolate because I have lost weight that week. I need to change my lifestyle. I know that I got there before, I know I can do it again! I just need to find my inner strength. Someone Please HELP ME!!
I had the worst week last week at work, made me feel really crappy. I didnt give 2 crackers about food, what I was eating, exercise, nothing. Today I am feeling about 3 kgs heavier and frumpy, muffin top happening, clothes look awful. I am having a real shocker. Funny that even though I woke up this morning with the determination to do this and get back down to the good feeling about myself, when I have this little voice inside telling me Im hungry and just one custard tart, or chocolate wont hurt. BUT IT WILL! I have to find some strength, and while Dean is working night shift, I can build some motivatio nup by going to the gym and shaking this flabby arse! I am sick of saying this every Monday, every week, every month. I do have to do this this time and not go back to the NORMAL routine. I have to stop being a lazy fat arse and actually maintain, not just pick up the chocolate because I have lost weight that week. I need to change my lifestyle. I know that I got there before, I know I can do it again! I just need to find my inner strength. Someone Please HELP ME!!
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